I hate it whenever I'm tired or sad, it is when I'll make the worse decisions but be sober enough to regret it.
Today is the worse combi, I'm both tired and sad. Work has totally drained me out, and some disappointments made me sad. I left work on time to try chilling out at home. In the end it took me about 2hrs to get home, dinner sucked and I spilt red wine over my carpet, plus the glass was broken...
Today is an epic bad day which I wish I could brawl out all these stress and hide in someone's embrace.
Attended a Dinner & Dance party last night. It's been a while since I last caught up with my ex-colleagues and enjoyed a weekend night out.
The dinner was fun, until the dance part... It wasn't easy to not feel lonely whenever the dj switched to couple dance music. Thankfully I had awesome company who surrounded me with love and mindless chatter.
I guess I got too carried away with the red wine last night. Since I'm the only non driver, I enjoyed the lovely French merlot a little too much... My tummy has been churning the whole day! Sigh~ is this a sign of old age? Hahaha.
The last few days have been painful, but I guess with each passing day, the pain slowly subsides. Now and then when I am reminded of the past, I can only grin my teeth and encourage myself not to look back. This pain will pass, eventually...
I wish I could have someone here now to cuddle me... Gosh, why are we so vulnerable when we are sick?
I'm so useless. I can't seem to do anything right these days. I can't even differentiate right from wrong when helping friends. I feel so powerless and unworthy... But I'm thankful for my upcoming vacation. I do need some time off to find my own pace back.
